not sure if it’s because of lexapro or my poor food choices, but for a few days i had a stomachache and felt pretty off for most of the days. on the other hand, i gave myself a chance to relax and actually do nothing. and i feel calm about it, which is awesome.

i haven’t had active suicidal thoughts recently, but i’m still very interested when i read or hear about something like that. so it’s still kind of a trigger. but overall, i think i feel better compared to a month ago. although last week i felt much better and less stressed — i don’t know why. maybe it’s just the weather.

it seems like i’m a little bit stuck right now. and it feels like lexapro helped me realize that. but the last couple of days, i don’t feel it at all, and i feel pretty shitty. i don’t know why. one day i had a job interview, and i felt extremely stressed, which is unusual for me in such situations. maybe i’m just tired. or maybe something else. it seemed like during the first two weeks, lexapro helped me get through situations like that, but this week i don’t feel that support at all. i hope that changes.

my libido is still high. my performance is still high. so my worst fears didn’t become reality, which is awesome.