okay, it’s been about six weeks since i started my journey with lexapro, and overall, it’s going pretty well.

around the fifth week, there were 3–5 days when i felt off. i’ve been feeling pretty shitty the last few days. i’m very irritated and easily upset. i checked online, and it seems like a lot of people experience something similar around the fifth week of taking lexapro. that’s good news — it means it should pass soon. but in the moment, it’s not funny at all. i feel pretty miserable and sad, and i have this weird feeling that lexapro isn’t working at all. but it is. my body just needs more time to adjust and fully accept the medication. as others have pointed out, it should stop soon. also, i’ve been wanting to sleep again.

but i’ve noticed that even in difficult moments, my mind stays calm and i keep doing what i have to do without overthinking. and that’s something i thought i could never manage in my life. wow!

on one of those days, i took a day off from everything and spent it in central park. and i felt so happy. i saw a lot of people, finished reading a book, and felt much better. even difficult situations make me feel optimistic. i just do my thing, see the result, and think about what to do next — without needless fear.

after that, everything started to improve. one day, i noticed that i hadn’t smoked weed, hadn’t eaten an edible, and i was feeling really good. i went for a walk in the evening after an extremely hot day, and i felt amazing. it’s so nice here. and i feel full. full of myself. fully myself. this is a nice feeling.

i’ve noticed how i’ve started to enjoy simple things sometimes — like looking at birds, noticing the color of the sky, or meeting an interesting person. all these things help me pause, smile, and feel happier.

it’s so interesting to look back and realize how much background noise i had in my mind before, and how much calmer i feel now.

also, in the fourth week, i talked to my physician. she’s keeping me on 5 mg, and after i told her about my morning anxieties, she advised me to take 10 mg of propranolol when i feel any.

and right now, i’m feeling so good.